feelings...? Dun even know if i have them...

Haiz... So many things have gone by and everyday i feel more left out, abandoned and alone... so empty this heart and soul of mine have become... I just hope that i can stick to the promises i made and that my special somebody can too... hmmm is it wrong for me to still feel jealous and all that even though i know its over? is it wrong for me to want wad i had in the past back in my life? a loss that wasn't mine, i still mourn for... i wanna keep you going, keep you strong. i wana understand wad you're goin through but you just wun let me near anymore! why???!!! wad have i done wrong? wad do you want of me? i tried to be there for you, you just chose to push me aside... what is a friend for anyway.

Well, sorry for sounding so bloody EMO, but there are people whom i'd like to thank. 1stly my beloved brother, Gabe, thanks u've been a real help to me these past few days when u stayed over, Gwen, dodo, thanks for being there for me! Words cannot begin to describe how thankful i am that i got a friend like you and how grateful i am for your listening ear. And last but not least, thanks darling, for all the sweet memories. I hope that in the course of time, many more will come our way and if they don't, i pray that these beautiful moments won't burn away in the anger and jealousy which i sometimes feel now...

God, thanks for giving me all that you have, even the trials i face now. because i know that with your guidance, i will emerge a stronger deeper person!